" It has never been something that I have sought out . I really would much rather be anonymous . "

If you grew up in the early ’00s, you know that absolutely everybody was talking aboutThe O.C.along with the massive stars of the show.

One of those stars wasMischa Barton, who famously played Marissa Cooper for three seasons until she was shockingly killed off in the Season 3 finale.

In a recent interview with theSunday Times, Mischa reflected on that period of her life and what it was really like going through such a heightened level of fame (becoming a household name almost instantly) starting at age 17 after previously launching her acting career as a child star. For Mischa, being that level of famous in the early ’00s (one period of time where media and paparazzi were notoriouslyhorribleto young female celebrities) was incredibly hard and it “was all veryHunger Games.” She recalled being hounded by paparazzi — and even having her car tracked. “I was stalked. I did go a little bit nuts at [one] point. I just felt really helpless.”

“You can go to therapy every day for the rest of your life,” she said. “But there’s just a certain amount of trauma [from] all that I went through, particularly in my early 20s, that just doesn’t go away overnight.”

Mischa also opened up about the way her body was scrutinized during the height of her fame. “Nothing I did was good enough,” she said. “It was the peak of cruelty about young women’s bodies. It was wild.”

And despite the struggles she went through, she sees that people now look back at that early ’00s era and see a lot of the cruelty that young female celebrities had to endure. “You can see how sorry people feel for what they did to people like Britney [Spears] then,” she said. “Everyone now is like, ‘I can’t believe we did that to those poor women.'”

You can read Mischa’s full interview with theSunday Timesin support of her return to TV onNeighbourshere.

The cast of "The O.C." on the red carpet

Closeup of Mischa Barton

Paparazzi taking photos of Mischa

Closeup of Mischa Barton in an art gallery

Mischa Barton smiles as she sits during an interview